dear ex..

 It has been a year already. A year of making myself believe that one day, one day we will be in each other"s arms again.

I know youre happy now, and I know that I have to let you go already. But, I think letting go of someone who hasnt only been your partner isnt easy.

Those happy memories turned to bad ones. From the moment you said you dont know if you still love me, I knew deep in my heart that our story will soon to an end. And it was only tears I gave to you upon seeing you walk away.

Trying to move and forget everything are the hardest thing i can do to stop hurting myself anymore. I could no longer count how many sleepless nights i spent crying and hoping that everything will be fine again. I respect your decision since i knew that part of whats happening is to be blamed on me. I just thought that it is possible to spend my life with you 'till the end. I never saw this coming, and it makes me so sad that it ended this way.

I am very much grateful for my family and friends who made me whole again. Letting go is not easy, but I have to do it for myself. Trying to forget everything is hard, most especially if everytime I look around all I can remember is you and the memories we had. Though its hard, I came to a realization that everything about us will never be the same again. Very determined to move on, I started a new chapter in my life in unfamiliar places surrounded with unfamiliar people.

I know I said that I will only love you and only you. But, after what happened, it took me almost a year and a half before I could say that im now ready to open my heart again. You will always have a special place in my heart. Even though we broke up, I dont want you to be completely deleted in my life. Now, Im just holding on to the thought that someday we can still end up as good friends. I may be picturing my future with you before, but not anymore. I need to run away from the world we built together and start building new for myself and for my future. I need to keep moving forward. 

You made me the strongest and mature person than i am before. Our memories will always have their special places in my heart. But, I guess this is the best time to bid my sweetest goodbye to you. Wishing you all the happiness in life. 

Till we meet again..